I've managed to get tonight (Tuesday 10 Nov)off work......Thank God (if he was real) because I'm absolutely shattered. I haven't slept properly for about four days and I've reached the point where I can't keep my eyes open. I'm writing this at 02:47 AM having woken up after crashing on the bed at about 8:30 PM last evening. I still feel as if my head isn't in the right place and feel weirdly disorientated. My hip hurts like hell and it seems like this is a permanent state of affairs. I fully understand why people go to Switzerland to top themselves when they have an incurable disease with unending chronic pain. At least I know this isn't a permanent state of affairs and will end when my hip is replaced, if I had to face this everyday for the remainder of my life I too would be looking for an end to it. So you Sanctimonious Know It Alls what the F**K do you actually know? Maybe if you are ever in the situation of the people you deny relief to you might change your mind. Until then They have to suffer for Your absurd belief that it's God's decision.
Wednesday
Stll in much distress aand I'mm taking tonight off as well in order to try one of those very strong painkillers and see if this will get me to go to sleep. Sent JDM a text to see if I can take tonight as holiday. He sent reply contact sick line and book as sick rather than holiday.
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